Paps

So,

Today has been a tough day. None of my statistics would go right today and yet another day of dreading what I'm going to do with my future. So my first phone call goes to my madre but we argue a lot and yet another calm and rational conversation turns into a heated battle between two stubborn beings. BUT then I call wee paps who is always a cutie and helps me though anything and always keeps me optimistic and sane. So this is a dedication to my love of my paps. Just because he always shows me his unconditional love and support and really means it. He is always there to put a smile on my face when I'm feeling a wee bit down in the dumps.

I just want to point out I love my mama too she is the reason I am the way I am. I love my paps because he always loves me and for that I always love him and he keeps me at one with who I am. I am so lucky to have both my parents and their love even if there are some non conventional methods of love. I never don't appreciate them being around and always wanting to love me for who I am. I suppose one can not ask for more in life than to be loved by the people that you love in return.


I guess this post is more about Love but family love and how grateful I am for it...


Sorry for the sappy post it was needed at this time.

Peace and love and all that jazz :)

I already want to delete my previous post!

So,

I'm regretting posting that previous and pointless post. I am already regretting it! I seriously think I may have some anxiety issues. Anyways on another note while trying to procrastinate on getting shit done I ended up stumbling across the band 'Daughter'. I just started listening to the song 'youth' after listening to 'Dreamer' by 'Tallest man on earth'. I would just like to point out how beautiful this song is I just find it soothing and her voice is so peaceful and soft.

There is no better feeling than finding a song by complete and utter surprise and you LOVE it! I am seriously desperate to find some new music to top up my ipod with I'm so bored of my old tunes. If anyone has any suggestions of any good songs at the moment please let me know! I am open to try any song it may not end up being my fav song but it may be so why in hell not give it a shot. You never know right? :)


By the way I just love the last chorus its so amazing! Aaaaaah I can not even explain how happy that I discovered this band today. Made my day for realz!


"And if you’re in love, then you are the lucky one,

‘Cause most of us are bitter over someone"

You should definetly have a listen! :)

Peace and love and all that jazz :)

Today

So,

Today not much has really happened to be honest. I did though have an awesome experience trying wigs on with my mate. I think I'm definitely going to buy one now! I feel like this needs to happen. I just LOVE the thought of being able to change a whole outfit without actually damaging any of your hair which is sweeeeeeeeeeet!

I feel like this is going to be a short entry because nothing exciting really happened today. I just had the same dilemmas as every. What am I going to do with my life? Where am I going to live? It is literally and on going battle. I was also thinking that maybe I could put on here what fashion I am into at the momento. Stuff like that. Other than that I think I'm going to watch some more of 'Thats 70s show' just because I still LOVE it!


Peace and love and all that jazz

P.S. sorry for such a lame post today ladies and gents!

Life

So,

Today I had an odd thought. I feel like I'm getting older (which is how time works). But I feel like I'm wrong to not want to settle down and find the person to spend the rest of my life with. I feel like I have someone that loves me yet I cant seem to find the space in my heart to love them back. I feel so foolish for doing this! Like am I just selfish? Do I just not know what love is? Do I not love them? Am I well and truly fucked up? Does everyone feel like this? Am I just a complete and utter knob?

I constantly have these questions going round in my head. I go from panic that I am going to spend the rest of my life alone and not have kids and have the life I want. Then I go to the screw you why should I plan my life around someone. I'm young wild and free and I should be allowed to be just that. I don't want to look back on my life and think did I give up everything I ever wanted or could of wanted for someone that may not be worth it.

I just spend my days in a constant battle with my brain. Its like back and forth. I just don't know where I stand with life at the moment. I don't know where I want my life to go. I don't know where I want to be. I don't know who I want to be with. The sweet irony is all I want to do in my life is help other people. Help other people with their relationship problems (family or romantic or anything). Yet I cant even figure myself out. But maybe that is just the beauty of it all. Maybe when I look back on my life I will be like I had the time to not be sure to not know where life will take me and maybe thats one of those beautiful and poetic things that you always see in movies when you've got white hair, you sit in rocking chairs, admiring your grandchildren reflecting on your life. When I was quite young all I wanted to do was be old I just thought it was cute and adorable and I could be one of those sassy old people that you kinda love for being so brutally honest but so loving at the same time. But as I age I am terrified! I do know that is normal... I just wish I had a playbook for life sometimes but then where would the questions be?


Peace and love and all that jazz :)


P.S. as you can still I am still trying to find my feet with this blog thingy. I don't know whether I should make it about my thoughts, fashion or agony aunt. There I go again I cant even figure out what I want to do with my blog let alone life! :)

Summer summer time

So,

I am SO excited for summer!!! Like I can not control how excited I am. Today was a somewhat sunny day and I kept getting these random moments of true joy that summer is on its way!

I just cant wait to be prancing around in short shorts, listening to happy acoustic music. On the note of music I am so into this song again (Video at the bottom) I just cant get enough of Solange it just makes me want to dance and be relaxed all at the same time! Anyways Ive been listening to a lot of old songs that kind of remind me of my youth where I would spend the whole summer just hanging out with my mates doing pointless stuff but seemed like the most important things in the world (which looking back makes me smile). Like the 10cc Dreadlock Holiday, this song will always remind me of my best mate we always dance to this at parties (random I know).  Ive just got that summer feelings!!!


I just need to be out in the sun getting my TAN on! Like pronto! If I could only type my excitement I would be summer couldnt come fast enough. I cant wait to sit back and just read some books. I think this summer calls for 'The Silver Linings Playbook' I also want to read 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' I read 'The Kite Runner' last year and I loved it so much. So those are my plans! Have you got anything awesome planned for summer? Or any tunes like always remind you of summer time? ( I think I will post some more of my favourite tunes for summer as a I go along).


Peace and love and all that jazz :)

A start of a new...

So,

This is the beginning of my blogging life. Just a heads up I am ridiculously crap-olo at spelling and grammar etc.

Anyway, I thought I should start a blog because why the hell not I'm young and this is what one does when they are young they do what ever they want because they want to. I am also starting this new thing where I try things that I would normally be too scared to do. So here I am blogging...

I kinda felt like I should do this while listening to If I had a boat by James Vincent McMorrow (hence the url for the blog). I also just witnessed THE most amazing bag on urban outfitters sale website (http://www.urbanoutfitters.co.uk/j-by-jas-mb-ipad-clutch/invt/5771402343333/ ) I think I have fallen in love with a clutch. Who knew!!!


Thats it for now. Hopefully I can make this interesting and witty and a new experience but I probably doubt I will be any of the first two points but at least I can tick new experience off my list!


Peace and love and all that jazz :)